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Monday, October 6, 2008

Something ?

Thanks for all ur comments and well wishes in my last blog. May God bless you all.

I just spoke to my mom dis morning and wen i dropped i realised sth dat has been re-occurring for some months now. I av realised dat it seems i av gone emotionally dull or gradually going emotionally numb!!!! I talk to her or my dad and mayb my sisters and a few friends like with no expression of emotion ( eg a smile,laff, anger or anytin) I'm flat, almost bored, almost distracted, almost robot.

Its like i av lost alot of my spark n humor. Wit my hubby everytin is intact but den i sort of partially shut down with most people (family, friends and clients). Dis worries me a GREAT deal. I feel dettached and its not me......I dont like wat's happening especially since i noticed it a while back and kept believing it would pass n its still here.

Dese r people I love and care about and de av axd me wats up but I say its either I just woke up from sleep or I just had an annoying customer or i was in d kitchen or i was outside or i just watch d fone ring as de call 1,2,3,4 times just so de can't tell i've signed out wen de r talking. Dere r very very few times i snap back to my normal self wen I talk to dem but, each time i'm emotionless i try to stop myself but i can't.

I hope dis bad phase passes by but den again how much longer will it take for it to stop. I really miss d OLD me.

20 comments:

30+ said...

Nikki, try to establish when it started. Think if there were any incident or circumstances that triggered it. As you are thinking pray that God should illuminate your heart as to what is happening.

Will send you a fb message.

Onome said...

hmmm...well i agree with 30+, see if something led to it and if not, well just relax...norin do u...der are always days wen pple are just not in d mood....u'll soon bounce back bigger and better say amen????(lol)...for d record i dont detect any change ooo...must mean am espesial;-)

naijalines said...

Hon, I think it might be a reaction to stress. Planning a wedding and getting through the big day can be very stressful. I would suggest you consult a doctor and see what they suggest.

Secondly a break from work/normal life might help. Maybe complete rest for a few days...a relaxing weekend with your husband away from home...anything that would help you chill for a short while to recharge your batteries.

All will be well, pls relax and trust that you'd get better soon. Stay blessed. xoxoxoxo

LG said...

Swerrrrri 'dis too shall pass Amen'
take kia now'

adoolicious said...

my dear, am in n position to judge, question or tell u whaats going on, cos as far as i am concerned, its a phase we passing thru, to make us see whether we like d old us or the becoming of us.....thus, u already on plan bby realising dat something is wrong and u miss you, so all u have to do now, is rediscover the reason behind d old you and see if it can apply to d present you n then, u will find yur ol'self again; but if it dont, then manufacture or get a new game plan that u've always looked forard to that perks u up....
i on d other hand hopes to figure this realization and get bk tooo... i miss 2000-2004 too.

Ms Sula said...

Sometimes the intensity of planning something as emotional as a wedding can drain us of our energy and seemingly our emotions.

You're probably just tired lady. It's a bit like finishing a very hard exam where one studied. Right afterwards, even an operation as simple as 2+2 can seem like a major hurdle.

You just need time to replenish your batteries. You need to unplug and let life and love fill you back up. Don't stress it too much. Even elite athletes need a period of weeks before starting training again.

Take good care of yourself.

isha said...

I agree, something might have happened to cause the drain in emotions. I have the same problem with my aunt, but i know exactly what caused it. you might want to do some research.

Chari said...

I am glad u realize this is just a phase...and like all phases it will naturally pass...what I suggest is that you take a serious break from everything and everyone...and try and walk back to the little things that make them ur loved ones...

Sola Folowosele said...

nice blog, populated by good thinkers and wise counsellors..

Aijay said...

u'll be fine sweetie... take some time to rest.

bumight said...

I think its your reaction to change, and once you get comfortable with everything, you'll have your old you in no time.

aloted said...

hmm not sure what to say...just take it easy and get some rest...
it is well ok

OluwaDee said...

Nikki deariee, your wedding pics look fab o.

How did you enjoy your trip to the moon??

Ok aspa your post, i believe u should make an xtra effort to tuk n communicate with them. These things happen, but we have to do something about it, n not just hope it will pass.

princesa said...

Eh ya, is this just post-marriage symtoms or what?
I pray it passes quickly too.

(¯`·._.·[***Fresh&Fab***]·._.·´¯) said...

take it easy babe, na so it dey start...im happy for you

fantasy queen said...

something might have triggered it or it could just be a mood swing thing.
i tune out to my family most times and i'm in tune with just one person, then i snap back to myself after a whiled.

Free-flowing Florida said...

Tomorrow free-flowing florida becomes FFF & Shotmusinz becomes Ruffin' It. Don't miss this ...

KAM BABY said...

Nikki, i think it's a phase u'll get over. It happens to me sometimes too. Or maybe u are just stressed, and u need to relax a bit. Can u take a break?

By the way, 1st time here. Cool.

QMoney said...

@nikkisab,of course d amt get as e be.i gave him 1/3rd and even added i need it dis friday,he has given me d cheque and promied nutin wld go wrng,i hope npthng does co i really need the money next week.lol
btw d bth of u,i still dnt tell beau oh,i jus dnt talk abt it again and he assumed i wnt give him..i hope he dnt fnd out or else.......

ibiluv said...

awwwwwwwwwww

this too shall pass!!!!!!!!!!!